astrology…

okay…so everyone knows their sign, right? initially when someone asks:

“what’s your sign?”

to answer that, you’d most likely give your sun sign. :) therefore, that makes me a taurus, which seems to match my personality, but i always felt something ELSE. i’ve been feeling depressed lately, and not really being able to explain why. there are a million and one things racing through my head, and i feel like i’m not getting ANYWHERE! it’s nothing to complain about or dwell on, but sometimes i just feel so overwhelmed and i just want all my worries to go away so i can start over fresh.

that’s always been my problem. when i was little and made a mistake on my paper, i would crumble it up, and restart the entire process. i always wanted to be one of those people who was content with just crossing out their mistake, and continuing on with their writing. I am the same way in life as I was with those assignments. I want everything to be perfect, and I even remember getting the side eye from one of my ex-boyfriends for saying:

“This isn’t right. Can we just start over? Want to start over?”

His response was very human: “Start over? Why? So everything can be perfect?”

YES.

I have this THING about not wanting anyone to see my flaws. Even thought I know they are right at the surface of my being, you can see them almost instantly after spending a moment to get to know me. I’m impulsive, I take on too many tasks at once, I rarely finish any of the projects I start, I try to please everyone, I constantly put myself last, I take in toxic people and try to heal their problems to make myself feel better, and sometimes I just care too MUCH!

I don’t want people to see these things, and when things get out of hand, I most often just yearn for a clean slate. Well, I’ve learned that life doesn’t give us too many fresh starts. Especially after our college years. The mistakes you make stick with you and shape who you are, and EVERYONE knows about them. :sigh:

Another one of my problems: RAMBLING.

Back to what I was saying…I’m a taurus, as far as sun signs go. And that’s lovely. Loyal, nurturing, playful, stubborn, and driven. Nice :)

But what happens when the sun sets? The moon appears…as does my Scorpio side. :) Now I just learned this about myself today. The website I visited said that your moon sign is who you REALLY are. Whenever people mention Scorpios, the first thing that’s mentioned is that they’re very sexually charged. When I think of myself, and the way I felt about things in college, it all seems very accurate. During the day I wanted to rush around taking care of everything and planning for my future…I was bright and cheerful and wanted to get things DONE. (Unless I was in one of my depressing moods, in which case I couldn’t leave the bed)

At night, however, all I could think of was drinking…smoke filled bars…tons of laughter…and eventually…when you now what comes next when you mix the night and drinking…and it never failed. It was almost like I was a totally different person at night. Very intense. And now that I understand what my moon sign is…very interesting.

It also says that Scorpios enjoy soaking in hot water…and this is most definitely one of my favorite things to do. As hot as I can stand it…soaking until I feel every toxin has left my body…and then finishing it off with body cream…and ending it either alone and satisfied in my bed…or longing to share that energy from the bath with someone else.

whoa.

Now let’s move on to the Mercury sign: how you think. And I am an ARIES. This one also makes sense to me, because it states that i’m quick thinking, and don’t have time to focus on every detail. No matter how important something is to me, I’d rather take it, unwrap it, and start using it….THAT is the best way for me to learn something. When I got my new camera, i put the manual to the side and just started taking pictures…learning the settings as I went along. And in a more figurative sense, in relationships…most of the time I barely know the person…I just build the relationship off a feeling.

Which is usually SO inaccurate -_-

It also stated that I take the useful information and disregard whatever I feel may be irrelevant. It was also completely truthful when it said that I don’t like being bogged down by too much information. If someone is telling me how to do something, and they’re using TOO MUCH verbage, I will simply tune out most of what they’re saying, and start on the task at hand while politely smiling and nodding. Simply because, hey :) I don’t need ALL of that. But I don’t want to be rude. :)

“They are restless and full of nervous energy.”

again…me. i HAVE to be doing something…and when i AM doing something, and it gets old? :sigh: watch out…i probably won’t be there much longer. i probably won’t even say goodbye.

The last thing that really stood out to me about Aries in Mercury is that obstacles for us, seem terribly disheartening. No matter what it is, if I’m doing well, and the flow is going great, but then something happens to throw me off…i’m not good at just smiling and “overcoming”. It’s almost like “GRAAAHHH, can’t anything just go SMOOTHLY for me, EVER?!?! :(“

lol.

…taking a break to read the rest…be back later :) maybe!